At 3:00 am when George and I stumble out of bed bleary eyed for a feed, we have to pause for a moment. In the evening when Harper’s colic kicks in and he begins wailing to be held, we have to pause a moment. As George and I wash yet another batch of a trillion bottle parts, we have to pause for a moment. At moments like these we feel like we need to escape to a far away place. We can easily start wishing for our babies to go ahead and grow up, grow out of needing feeds in the wee hours of the morning and stop crying already. But, when we pause for just a moment, we realize how precious and fleeting these moments are. Every day there are tough moments, but there are are so many rich moments interwoven. At the moment, we have babies tiny enough that we can hold more than one at once. At the moment, they actually like being snuggled. While we complain that formula can break the bank, it really only costs about $5/ day to feed each baby. It won’t be long before teenagers clear out the fridge and it won’t cost just $5/ day.
Sure, we can dream about the days of potty trained kids who partake in family game nights. We can imagine little girls with enough hair for braids adorned with huge bows and little boys that play catch in the yard. We can dream about when they are old enough to appreciate the magic of Santa and Disney Land. Those times will come with different tough moments, and we must treasure them too. For now we shall embrace every little moment as it happens, even the tough ones. There will come a day when we will miss having a tiny baby who wails to be snuggled and when we could feed them for just $5 day.
It’s hard to believe that our tiny babies have already outgrown preemie clothes and are stretching out of newborn sizes too. The boys have graduated from tiny 4 oz bottles to the full sized ones and the girls are not far behind. Our tiny ones are growing so fast already. I better get going before I miss more moments.